I'm a waste, I'm alone, nobody loves or care about me, boiling anger, frustration about how things are now. Blaming self and others things doesn't workout and Pointing my fingers to others. Jealous about others. Always wishing things were different. Fear of failure. Fear of rejection. Fear of uncertainty about future. Fear of missing the loved one. Fear of death. Feeling down, not worth, I'm don't deserve to him/her. Hiding the self. I'm worthless,Why did I born?. Last that everything in Life sucks....
Just wait, do you gone through all of this? Be honest. I felt, I thought above things..
Do you?
It's OK, its bit hard to admit. I can understand.
All the above things were always would spin around my head. My head was overloaded with these. I felt like someone pulled off my head.
I know I was unhappy. I was playing fantasy movie that things would be great tomorrow. But Reality had a different answer to my fantasy movie. Now I had two choices
1. Playing same old fantasy mode.
And keep running myself to a wall.
And keep running myself to a wall.
2. I could give up my fantasy movie.
Learn to be in present and accept
my life as it is.
Learn to be in present and accept
my life as it is.
Always I ran my self to walls but eventually I learnt that present is more awesome than my fantasy world.
The fantasy movies....
I thought all the pains, sufferings was from the reality but eventually I did realized that pain was causing from my fantasy movie.
In fantasy mode. we think that our life goes in our way. How others should accept certain things as we said. How should our friend, girlfriend/boyfriend should behave with us.
We are building up only a restrictions.
We can't control others and life. But we can control ourselves. We can control our thoughts.
My world was only filled hatred, anger unhappy. Because I didn't love myself or my world I am at. But it's always a learning process. Now I am starting to love myself bit by bit. Loving my goodness. Also loving my badness and slowly pulling it to light.
Now, It's your turn now.
This is it man........ Life never sucks....
